The Haunting Update

Since I've been in California, I have noticed a distinct change in my mood and my thought processes.

I do not think of Aunt Tudi 24/7 like I was doing. When I do, they are good memories, and I am sharing those with the Mother Unit.

It's not like I don't have my moments. I still envision her dying, but it's only happened a couple of times in the past two weeks.

My sleep isn't much better, but at least I can sleep a little each night.

This is the first time in two years that I've felt that everything was going to be alright.
  • Current Location: home
  • Current Mood: hopeful hopeful
  • Current Music: Alien on TV
I had great hopes that a change of scene would make a big difference for you -- glad to hear that it is working. :)
They say you can't run away from your problems, but when your problems are the house you live in, I think running away is feasible.
Thank you. Honestly, I would not be alive right now, if I had not come out here. June was my target date for either rescue or suicide.
Such grand news! I am so grateful to read this. I was to the point of pinching your Uncle Michael long-distance.
I am so glad to hear this! Sometimes, you do need to change the scenery to get out of the pits. It's not running away from the problem in this case, it's leaving a toxic environment.
That's what I explained to the psychiatrist. She seemed to grok what I was saying. So did my therapist.
I'm so relieved...and so, so happy for you. Having people around that you *want* to be around...and a change of scenery...and all that? PERFECT.

What a relief this must be for you. Happy for you and proud of you for being so brave as to travel so far from "home" to make an improvement in your life. That took courage.
It honours me that you think I'm brave, but I think I was just desperate. There's the chance, too, that I may head back to that house, but I'll be heading back with the Mother Unit, who's not too very happy with the living conditions here right now. We'll see.
I'm so very happy for you. During my move I'd often think of your move and had hopes this change of locale would do you good. I missed you when I was without the interweb. The first movie I watched once we had the TV hooked up and enough videos unpacked was Young Frankenstein. It made me feel connected to you even though we're thousands of miles apart. ♥
::heartpop:: You have no idea how wonderful it is that you associate me with Mel Brooks! ::HUGS::
Wonderful news! Breaking unhealthy patterns is a great thing.

It just remembered that my mom quit smoking while she was visiting San Diego. She was there to help my sister when my nephew was born. So it seems to be a good place to reset.
Yes, it seems quite healthy. The people are super-nice and, even though I'm not fond of the perpetually sunny weather, it does allow for walking and getting out, which I was not doing.

Thank you for sticking by me through all this.
I am thankful for the fact that you feel you can share the thoughts about Aunt Tudi with Your MU. It helps if you can talk it out, doesn't it? I don't have that very often, so I am stuck in my haunted place, at least for a while longer.
Get out as fast as you can. You are mostly much stronger emotionally than I am, but I don't want to see you take any chances. I had already planned on a third attempt in June, if the move to San Diego fell through. One way or another, I was leaving that house before Alban Hefin.
Thank you. For being glad and for being so supportive over the past couple of years. I love you and everyone here for it.